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Rapper DMX's Wife Tashera Simmons Releasing Tell All Book And We Have The Title And Book Synopsis

STRENGHT OF A WOMAN The Tashera Simmons Story
The drama was inevitable, and the only way for me to deal with the pain was to attempt to block it all out. Erase the problems from my mind, file it all in and press delete. Even so, the problems continued to sweep over us like a category five hurricane. Once we were over one hurdle another soon followed.

Still, I look at my husband; he in all of his glory stands bright. I am reminded of when we first met. I was a child full of innocence unexposed to life. He was child familiar with pain, already exposed to the fight for survival in the rough Yonkers streets. Despite his way of life, it was no wonder even then that he was more. Before the world knew his name I knew him first. He was just Earl back then, and he left an indelible mark on my mind long before he left his mark as DMX. He was my hero who opened my eyes to a world of excitement that I had not seen in the confines of my sheltered and secluded life.

As his wife and friend I understood his pain, anger and determination. We connected in ways many people found difficult to understand. Our love spawned from a deep friendship and our love for God, Jesus and the Bible, a bond that has seen the test of time. Some have tested the strength of our bond but quickly realize that our story does not resemble the typical “Hollywood” fantasy that is easily destroyed because of its lack of foundation. We ride for a cause but more importantly we ride for each other.

Marriage is complicated, and it's even harder under the scrutiny of flashing camera lights, the media, fans, groupies, hustlers, and haters. Raising seven siblings was character building, but did not prepare me for what my life would eventually become. Faith has kept me by my husband’s side every step of the way and it has also changed me. As a celebrity wife, it is easy become enthralled by the glitz and glamour, and get lost in the entrapments of fame. Success has afforded us some of the best of everything. However, along with the wealth came some of the worst of everything. Infidelity, paternity suits, rape charges, drug abuse, and incarcerations. The relationship we once shared quietly became a public spectacle.

Our lives turned into a forum for discussion. The exposure started to become overwhelming as I desperately searched for any semblance of normalcy. It almost made me despise the fame, made me want to live an ordinary life. The privacy I once cherished was gone, now the public was privy to my pain. My desire was to get away from the judgments, criticism, and harassment. It was like watching our lives on the big screen unable to predict the next scene. As Earl’s popularity increased, tribulations escalated. Later amidst all that comes with being in the spotlight, reality sets in, and I realize I have choices. I could try to disregard my troubles or break away from it all. As a God fearing woman, I worry at times if I am sacrificing something major, ignoring obvious signs, or straying from my purpose. The lifestyle has a tight grip, and it seems the more you try to pull away, the tighter the hold. Like drugs, the wealth is addictive, has you feigning for more. Power is seductive and has many ways to enslave you, and we were shackled under the duress of super stardom. Monetary gain provided a comfortable way to live but it did not reduce or take away all of the heartache because it is only a temporary fix for a long term problem. After over twenty years together, four children, and massive success, there is no stopping or going back, only moving forward. It is a difficult road to tread but I am not broken or debilitated because God has held my hand the entire time. Many have their opinions, some even say I should retreat, but God has given me the strength and I have far more to learn. While this process is a strenuous one, I will only become wiser and more refined. Life as I once knew it has been long gone, replaced by the fast paced, cumbersome walk down celebrity road.

I’m the wife of DMX and this is my story. Forget about all that you have heard before. It’s time I tell it, the way it should be told, honestly and from the heart…

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